I woke up in bed, and thought this is a new beginning for him and I. I could smell him making breakfast. I got up and took a hot shower so I could join him but I could already hear his foot steps as he comes in to join me. I kiss him and we are both happy. For the first time in my life, I believe I am happy and decide to make life some life decisions. I decide to quit my job to go take a big step in life and start looking for a career. I am unemployed and planning to look for a career and go back to school. We initially started off on the wrong foot and went to being a fling to something a little more meaningful. I fell in love with him and the life I could picture us having in the future. Unfortunately he was still going through a bad divorce and even though him and his ex had been separated for more than a year, he still had to comunicate with her because of their three year old daughter. One day I felt my stomach cramping more than usual. I had just switched birth control so I thought maybe it's just that time of month. I ended up getting sick and decided to get a pregnancy test at Planned parenthood, I decide to go by myself because I don't want anyone to know unless it is something I considered. The nurse then informs me it is positive. I have a rush of emotions flow through me, happiness, sadness, fear and anger at myself for not being as safe as if hoped. I then become nervous to tell him and told myself I have to. I drove up to his house and he was there with his ex. I thought to myself, I have never met her and it was late for her to be here. She left in a hurry. He then told me that things are delaying with their divorce. That she still wants to work things out and he seemed confused on who to choose. I told him I was pregnant and had been for 6 weeks. He told me we would think things over but I was stuck, I had given so much up to start a life with him and knowing he didn't stand on our side, I didn't want him in my life anymore. I said prayers for things to fall into place and I know God works in mysterious ways. It was hard for me to come up with the decision. I had no job, no spouse, no place of my own. I felt I made the best decision for the situation I was in. I am feeling very emotional at the moment but look forward to waiting for marriage to conceive a baby, until then I recieved the birth control implant.
2016 United States
What were your feelings about doing the abortion/s?
How did you do the abortion?
My experience was good for the situation. I honestly wouldn't have made it through it if it wasn't for this kind nurse that helped me through the pain of the surgical procedure. I didn't take the sedation part of it, she held my hand as the cramping got worse and as she could see the emotions, she stayed by me.
What was your situation at this time?
How did other people react to your abortion?
It was a sad situation, i didn't tell anyone else about it.