Emmy Smith

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It was the best decision of my life

2015 France

What were your feelings about doing the abortion/s?

I could easily check all those boxes. But the moment when you know that the test is going to show a plus sign and you don't want it, it is a nightmare on earth. I'm a person who doesn't like children and I am always careful. I was just so disappointed and ashamed of myself, and I still am. I don't want to talk about this ever again and I just need to bury it somewhere deep. I was also sure about my decision and very relieved that I live in a country where I can choose the destiny of my life by myself. I felt so stupid and I was feeling so sorry of myself. I wanted just sleep and pretend that nothing was wrong, but everything was wrong and it needed to be fixed soon.

How did you do the abortion?

This was the cheapest way to proceed (legally with professional help) and I thought it would be easily done. But in France you need to wait a week before the doctor can start the abortion, in case you change your mind. I thought that the medical way would be the easiest and less painful but I was really wrong. I took the first medicine and it didn't have any effect in my body. 48h later I took the second one and it hurt so much that I couldn't see or walk. I wanted to go home but I couldn't do anything than sit outside and wait for the pain to go away, but it didn't. I wanted to throw up because my legs and my whole upper body were in the most horrible pain that I have ever experienced. If I could choose now, I would do the surgery.

What was your situation at this time?

I know it's a cliche to say this but it just wasn't for me. I fell in love with the wrong person at the wrong time. He doesn't even know about any of this, but every day I would want to tell him my story. I would want to make him feel bad about leaving me the worst time ever. But I don't. It doesn't matter anymore, I am strong enough to get trough this by myself.

Ngaba ukungabikho mthethweni kokuqhomfa kwakho kuchaphazele iimvakalelo zakho?

It is not illegal in my home country or in the country I am living in right now. I think all women should have the right to do this and make the decisions of their own bodies and lives.

Benze ntoni abanye abantu xa ukhupha isisu?

I was and still am to scared to tell anyone. I only told a two people about my positive test and I knew immediately that I am going to end it as soon as possible. My closest was supporting my decision and helping me to get it ended.

legal/illegal

What is your religion?

Jen

I had an abortion and I'm so pleased that I had that option. I was only 18…

Juliana

Quero tranquilizar vocês, descobri minha gravidez no dia 1º de dezembro de 2019

SD

I had an abortion. It was in October of 2008, when I was 21. The guy I was…

Maleja

Yo aborté.

luz

getting thru the pain.

Maggie

Desculpa não te ter dado uma chance de sobreviveres, mas fiquei demasiado…

Casey

Medical abortion, 19 years old

Maiara Rejane

Não havia outra alternativa.
Dia 02 de Julho, voltava de uma festa, havia bebido…

Aga... ta...(?)

zastanawiam się jak to przeżycie i fakt co zrobiałam wpłynie na dalsze moje…

María

Aborté y no me arrepiento. I do not regret my abortion.

Bia Li

Me encontro na cama deitada nesse momento, após ter passado um dia inteiro no…

Adriana Reyes

Hola mi nombre es Adriana tengo 22 años y soy estudiante de Pedagogía; quisiera…

Daisy

Miałam aborcję. I nie jestem z tego dumna.
19 lutego 2020 roku zrobiłam test…

Pam Map

Yo lo hice no me arrepiento para nada y agradezco a este sitio por haberme…

LOLO

Made me who I am today

y.enedi

yo decidi un aborto,

Maca

Tuve suerte...

Violet

la verdad nunca paso por mi mente que a mi me sucedería algo así, siempre pensé…

Beth

No estaba 10% segura pero lo hice,
Yo aborte.

Kiara

Lo hice por amor al bebé, no me merecía como mamá.