Emmy Smith

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It was the best decision of my life

2015 France

Quels étaient vos sentiments au sujet de faire l'avortement / s?

I could easily check all those boxes. But the moment when you know that the test is going to show a plus sign and you don't want it, it is a nightmare on earth. I'm a person who doesn't like children and I am always careful. I was just so disappointed and ashamed of myself, and I still am. I don't want to talk about this ever again and I just need to bury it somewhere deep. I was also sure about my decision and very relieved that I live in a country where I can choose the destiny of my life by myself. I felt so stupid and I was feeling so sorry of myself. I wanted just sleep and pretend that nothing was wrong, but everything was wrong and it needed to be fixed soon.

Comment avez-vous fait l'avortement?

This was the cheapest way to proceed (legally with professional help) and I thought it would be easily done. But in France you need to wait a week before the doctor can start the abortion, in case you change your mind. I thought that the medical way would be the easiest and less painful but I was really wrong. I took the first medicine and it didn't have any effect in my body. 48h later I took the second one and it hurt so much that I couldn't see or walk. I wanted to go home but I couldn't do anything than sit outside and wait for the pain to go away, but it didn't. I wanted to throw up because my legs and my whole upper body were in the most horrible pain that I have ever experienced. If I could choose now, I would do the surgery.

Quelle était votre situation à ce moment-là?

I know it's a cliche to say this but it just wasn't for me. I fell in love with the wrong person at the wrong time. He doesn't even know about any of this, but every day I would want to tell him my story. I would want to make him feel bad about leaving me the worst time ever. But I don't. It doesn't matter anymore, I am strong enough to get trough this by myself.

L'illégalité de votre avortement a-t-elle affecté vos sentiments ?

It is not illegal in my home country or in the country I am living in right now. I think all women should have the right to do this and make the decisions of their own bodies and lives.

Comment les autres personnes ont-elles réagi à votre avortement ?

I was and still am to scared to tell anyone. I only told a two people about my positive test and I knew immediately that I am going to end it as soon as possible. My closest was supporting my decision and helping me to get it ended.

légal/illégal

What is your religion?

Mandy Amanda

Hora de recomeçar

chanel

I did it because as a female that is my right to control my body no man or…

Catarina Fernando

Tenho 18 anos e os meus pais nunca iriam aceitar que eu tivesse um filho com…

Sylwia Zatońska

Ciąża nie powinna być przypadkiem!!!

Mary

I can now carry on with life.

lolita

fui libre respecto esta decision

baby t

i had 2 abortions first 1 when i was 16 i knew i was ready to have a child or…

Renata

Calma, eu sei seu desespero. VAI DAR TUDO CERTO! #FORÇA

Daniela

No era el momento, no me arrepiento.

LOLO

Made me who I am today

Brenda Rojas

Yo aborte, pero aunque no me siento orgullosa, tampoco me arrepiento.

keira

Chcę mieć kontrolę. Zrobiłam to i NIE ŻAŁUJĘ.

Wzięłam pierwszą tabletkę, czułam…

Layla Sesey

I had an abortion when i was 19 yrs . I last saw my period in December till…

y.enedi

yo decidi un aborto,

Sharon

I don't regret my abortion.