Lindseymae Mckay

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My name is Lindseymae McKay. I will be 32 years old next week. I have a 6 year old son who is truly the only reason I breathe. I’ve had several abortions. None of which I have ever felt any guilt or remorse; in fact, all I ever felt was relief.
That was until my most recent procedure.
About a month ago I realized I was pregnant. I knew before I took a pregnancy test & knew that I would want an abortion. After the pee-stick confirmation at home, I took the next few necessary steps in scheduling my abortion appointment at the local clinic. I was early enough in the pregnancy to have the option of using the medical abortion versus the in-clinic, vacuum procedure (which really sucks, no pun intended). So about two weeks ago, I went to clinic, heard the same ole song-and-dance about when to take the pills, what to expect, what warning signs to be aware of, bla-bla-bla. As expected, it was a fairly painful ordeal with heavy bleeding, extreme discomfort, with a supportive and clueless partner by my side. Now, here I sit in my bathroom in the middle of the night, wondering if this HUGE bloody booger thing that just fell outta me is the unwanted fetus. It looks like a cranberry covered wonton that, seriously, has the classic fetus shape to it. Now- instead of just flushing it down the toilet, I carefully put it onto a piece of
Toilet paper and instantly went online googling what the
Possibilities were of this gory splotch being the thing I wanted out of me- and if so- why do I feel so guilty about it? Why am I sitting here holding my tears back examining this thing looking for little fingers or toes? What the hell is wrong with me? And now I get it. I’m human. Despite the relief I feel at knowing I’m not going to be having another child, I feel horribly irresponsible and overwhelmingly selfish. I am sure this will not last. At least I hope it doesn’t. I’m sharing this story hoping someone see will share something similar and make me
Feel like I’m less
Of a monster for doing this not once but several times.

2019 الولايات المتحدة الأمريكية

How did you do the abortion?

Painful but effective

What was your situation at this time?

كيف كان رد فعل الآخرين على إجهاضك؟

They encouraged it.

legal/illegal

What is your religion?

Pippa

I had 2 abortiona in the space of a year...

was 20 nearrly 21 i hadnt had a…

Maria sovitlana

i really cant believe that i can do it in a country where so much hard law…

Cacau

O aborto é uma escolha apenas da MULHER.

Ania

Wczoraj dokonałam aborcji.
Odejście od męża, związanie się z nowym, wydawałoby…

baby t

i had 2 abortions first 1 when i was 16 i knew i was ready to have a child or…

Edyta

Nie wstydzę się tego, że jestem teraz szczęśliwa!!!

Kah

Decisões difíceis exigem coragem.

Embrace So

aku aborsi karena aku tidak ingin mengecewakan banyak orang. pasangan saya sama…

Beata

Informacja o ciąży przeraziła mnie...nie potrafiłam się z tym pogodzić, byłam…

Aby

I felt it was accapted to have an abortion

Liz Price

I had an abortion

katrina nicole

the only time i look back is to say thank god

Tiffany

I am still healing from my decision - it really is a wide range of emotions.

Lu

Y aunque todos los días piense que podría haber sido, fue la mejor decisión…

Yasmin Lara

Bom,eu encontrei vários relatos e quis deixar o meu bom eu tenho só 17 anos e…

sogoodtobebad stassia

Dziewczyny ! nie bójcie się ! nie taki diabeł straszny jak go malują. Jeżeli…

Sofia Ignatius

I had abortion n all went well

Juliana

Quero tranquilizar vocês, descobri minha gravidez no dia 1º de dezembro de 2019

Adriana

Myślałam, że będzie gorzej, na szczęście cały czas była ze mną moja druga…