Nthati

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It was a difficult but necessary choice to have made.

2016 Северная Африка

What were your feelings about doing the abortion/s?

Upon finding out that I was pregnant, I should’ve been excited. But I wasn’t, I found myself crying and uncontrollably sad in the bathroom as the test came out clearly positive. I knew I wasn’t ready for this child. I knew I should’ve been more careful. And the saddest part, is I knew that my child wasn’t coming into a good union. My partner flat out ignored me for a week after I told him that I was pregnant. I felt so rejected and hurt, I knew I wasn’t ready for a baby, even though it was my first pregnancy but I needed the emotional support of someone who sold me the wildest dreams of love. I took the decision to head out to Marie stopes to get the pregnancy terminated as early as I could. I was 5 weeks along and they gave me the medical abortion pills to take at home. The nurses were very friendly and supportive, they were informative and kind to a young woman in need of assurance that everything would go well. I took the first pill at the Marie Stopes premises and the nurse talked me throughout what was expected to happen at home. She did her best to assure me that I would be fine, and should I not be- I can call to seek emergency help. Nothing could prepare me for what the next four pills were about to do to my body. Within 39 minutes of taking them, I was shivering, throwing up and having diarrhea all at once. I felt dizzy and had such terrible pains that I didn’t know whether to stand straight, lie down or cower into a foetal position. I began to cramp so horribly, I started crying and thought maybe I should call an ambulance cos I might be dying. After lying down, throwing up with a bucket right next to me- I began to bleed heavily. The pains were starting to subside, but the bleeding was basically gushing at this point. I was lying down and I felt a small mass in my legs, on my pad, which I assumed was the baby. I went into the toilet and cleaned myself up. I am never doing this sh*t to myself again. Overall, I was relieved when it was all over. But I was disappointed in myself that I wasn’t more careful. The experience had made me more empathetic and I wish I could be there for other young women who have no choice but to go the illegal route. Please don’t be hard on yourself and pray for healing everyday. Love and Light to all, ashe.

How did you do the abortion?

I had a medical abortion using two sets of Pills administered by Marie Stopes.

What was your situation at this time?

How did other people react to your abortion?

Supportive of my decision although I only told my friends. My colleagues thought it was a miscarriage.

legal/illegal

What is your religion?

María

Mirar hacia adelante.

Magui

La mejor decisión

Kiara

Lo hice por amor al bebé, no me merecía como mamá.

Gadzinka

Moja aborcja przemineła tak jak miała , wziełam tabletki potem dojadałam .

magdalena

Miałam aborcje. Dzięki pomocy i wyrozumiałości women on web uda mi się to.

Pam

No había otra opción.

Bee

I felt very guilty but relieved . I was way too young to be a mother.

Jo

I'm in a loving relationship and it wasn't too long ago when I found out I was…

Lu

Y aunque todos los días piense que podría haber sido, fue la mejor decisión…

Eléonore Delmas

I had an abortion

laura

Mi experiencia

Carol

I woke up in bed, and thought this is a new beginning for him and I. I could…

AS

I am having an abortion as I am writing this, at home with cytotec…

Lisal M. C

It was a big decided that I made in my life. I had a complexity relationship…

Aby

I felt it was accapted to have an abortion

JEREMY

I had an abortion on the 26/27 of september through medication it was…

Paula Paula

Miałam aborcję... to była trudna decyzja, nigdy nie zapomnę...