Lindseymae Mckay

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My name is Lindseymae McKay. I will be 32 years old next week. I have a 6 year old son who is truly the only reason I breathe. I’ve had several abortions. None of which I have ever felt any guilt or remorse; in fact, all I ever felt was relief.
That was until my most recent procedure.
About a month ago I realized I was pregnant. I knew before I took a pregnancy test & knew that I would want an abortion. After the pee-stick confirmation at home, I took the next few necessary steps in scheduling my abortion appointment at the local clinic. I was early enough in the pregnancy to have the option of using the medical abortion versus the in-clinic, vacuum procedure (which really sucks, no pun intended). So about two weeks ago, I went to clinic, heard the same ole song-and-dance about when to take the pills, what to expect, what warning signs to be aware of, bla-bla-bla. As expected, it was a fairly painful ordeal with heavy bleeding, extreme discomfort, with a supportive and clueless partner by my side. Now, here I sit in my bathroom in the middle of the night, wondering if this HUGE bloody booger thing that just fell outta me is the unwanted fetus. It looks like a cranberry covered wonton that, seriously, has the classic fetus shape to it. Now- instead of just flushing it down the toilet, I carefully put it onto a piece of
Toilet paper and instantly went online googling what the
Possibilities were of this gory splotch being the thing I wanted out of me- and if so- why do I feel so guilty about it? Why am I sitting here holding my tears back examining this thing looking for little fingers or toes? What the hell is wrong with me? And now I get it. I’m human. Despite the relief I feel at knowing I’m not going to be having another child, I feel horribly irresponsible and overwhelmingly selfish. I am sure this will not last. At least I hope it doesn’t. I’m sharing this story hoping someone see will share something similar and make me
Feel like I’m less
Of a monster for doing this not once but several times.

2019 Соединенные Штаты Америки

What were your feelings about doing the abortion/s?

How did you do the abortion?

Painful but effective

What was your situation at this time?

Как другие люди отреагировали на ваш аборт?

They encouraged it.

legal/illegal

What is your religion?

Yvonne

My abortion was what needed to be done at that time. Deep down me I know I…

Mayra

Yo aborté a las 7 semanas y fue la mejor decisión.

Daria

Mam 17 lat i jestem z moim chłopakiem od lutego. Aborcji dokonałam z wczoraj na…

Gemma

The best decision for me.

gladys

yo aborte ayer y aca estoy,un dia despues, contando mi experiencia para quien…

Carla

Meu nome não é esse. Não posso me expor, não posso dizer demais. Fico no…

VIcky

Yo aborte

Jay

I had a medical abortion when i was 18 years old at 5 weeks pregnant. Yes, it…

kathy

No me sentía lista

Anonimowa

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Bryann Turner

It was the right decision for me at this time.

Giovana Cardoso

Fiz um aborto com 10 semanas e 2 dias de gestação

Daniela

My perception of so many things changed a lot with this experience and realised…

Dana Bronte

Muerte de un ángel.

Luciana

Hace exactamente 1 año y dos meses. Arranque el 2017 con todo. Supe el día que…

Frida Ku

La experiencia que me cambio.

dessa

fiz um aborto sozinha

Isa

Tenho 28 anos, namoro a 2 anos. Sou do interior.
Duas semanas atrás descobri que…