DeOne
Its gonna be the first time i speak about my abortion.
I was just a 25 yo girl, so in love, so naive. I fall pregnant after a 3 years relationship. I tried familly planning pills in the first year, but i felt too sick to continue. I then, used Intra-uterine device for another year, but the pain during intercourses, was too big that i had it removed.
I discussed it with my boyfriend,and we start using condoms.
But, being so naive, and so lonely( i have no family),i wanted a baby, someone to love inconditionaly, i had maternal instincts since my childhood.
I conceived in February of the 3rd year of my relationship, i was happy for the baby, my boyfriend was happy, but we were too broke to meet the future baby needs.
We barely had rent money, bills money, i was a student, and he had just lost his invesment.
My head started spinning, fear wouldn't allow me to think straight.
Being a african girl, i couldn't tell a soul, it would be seen as an abomination.
I only made 250$ in a month, i was in scholarship, and i was writting exams.
I had been dealing with a chronic nerve disease for 2 years. For that i had to be on strong meds for the nerve pain( my whole left side was tingling, and sometimes numb)
I had fear for the meds to harm my unborn child, or to lead to deformities, since stopping them could endanger my life.
I went for consultation and my fears were confirmed.
It was a tough choice, my health or having a baby with no sufficient incomes.
My boyfriend was ready to support me either choice i wanted to make, he didn't want to put pressure on me, he supported me all the way.
I still remember nurses gossiping on my cases, rejections from 2 or 3 clinics, tears of desesperation and of guilt; and finaly a doctor that understood my struggles.
She was really nice, she listened to me very calmly, asked me about my medical reports, and comforted me.
I was assigned an adorable nurse who was really skilled. She asked me if i was ready, and i told her that i choosed my health.
It was quick, i was given a pill to swallow with water( misoprostol, if i remember), and another to put in my cheeks some hours after.
I breeded a lot, after taking the second pill at home, i had no strength, my boyfriend took care of me.
I could go out like 4 days later.
The following month i went for scan and i was okay.
I am sorry, my story is quite long, but if it can comfort someone, i would be glad.
Whoever will ready this, should know that SHE IS NOT ALONE!
IT HURTS BUT TIME HEALS.
XOXO
2002 South Georgia en de South Sandwich Islands
Hoe voelde je je over de abortus?
I was sad but i knew it was the right choice
How did you do the abortion?
Bonne
What was your situation at this time?
I was sick and broke