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The "choice" of medical termination is not accurate when it's used as a weapon against a woman who wants her baby, but is told that a dangerous medical condition is threatening both mother and fetus.

2017 United States

What were your feelings about doing the abortion/s?

Abortion feelings are so complex. I feel guilty and ashamed that I would choose abortion even though it was medically recommended. Its only been 6 days and I still cry every day, I still wonder if I was wrong to terminate. I feel lonely.... VERY LONELY. there is no one I can really cry to who will understand my loss. It's uncomfortable and awkward to be trapped in my grief. I have always been pro-choice, and I remain that way. I still hurt in a way that I imagine I cannot articulate. Sometimes it comes out in rage, sometimes in quiet sadness, sometimes in physical pain (I have not been able to eat in a week because it hurts) I have felt suicidal frequently.... I don't understand why. I obviously had my choice made appropriately.

How did you do the abortion?

The abortion itself was relatively painless (physically) I was terrified, so I was given anti anxiety medication before I was given the sedatives and put to sleep. I woke up and nothing but my cyst hurt. All in all, if it wasn't for my large dermoid cyst, I would almost say I was comfortable. I was given medication for pain, but I'm sure ibuprofen would have been enough if my cyst was not giving me severe pain (clearly my cyst, not the abortion due to the location of the pain)

I have a large cyst that was literally bigger than my 14 week old fetus. it had migrated up into my navel area behind my uterus.... I could not safely carry my child to term.

Adakah haramnya pengguguran anda mempengaruhi perasaan anda?

No. The Legality of it makes me grateful. What I experienced post abortion could have been so much worse. No one deserves to feel as though they are worthless, or inhumane for choosing termination for any reason. Mine was medical, I wanted that baby but he and I were at very serious risk, and I chose what some would call selfishly to abort in order to save us both the pain, and the potential death he would experience if my ovary did torsion as it was huge and high up and inoperable. He didn't deserve to die feeling pain. He felt the drugs I was given, we both said goodbye to each other asleep, quietly, and without the trauma that was likely to ensue later when he could not be saved, and I may not have been able to either.

Bagaimana reaksi orang lain terhadap pengguguran anda?

I have had doctors who were kind in the beginning, literally turn on me post abortion. My husband has always remained steadfastly supportive. My friends have generally felt my heartbreak and grief and tried to help too. I have also been verbally and physically assaulted in an ER after my D&C. I have bruises on my thighs and vagina from being forcibly given an unnecessary foley bag, while the doctors watched these nurses, one literally said, "Well, she chose to abort her fetus, of course she's hysterical. This cyst isn't causing her pain." as I vomited bile over the room while sobbing.

legal/illegal

What is your religion?

Maggie

Desculpa não te ter dado uma chance de sobreviveres, mas fiquei demasiado…

baby t

i had 2 abortions first 1 when i was 16 i knew i was ready to have a child or…

Jessi

No olvidemos, que nos haga crecer

AS

I am having an abortion as I am writing this, at home with cytotec…

Mayra

Yo aborté a las 7 semanas y fue la mejor decisión.

Camila Gray

I had an abortion,im having my abortion.

Luka

Hice lo mejor que pude, estando bajo toda la presión del mundo.

andrea ka

Yo aborte

luz

getting thru the pain.

María

Mi aborto.

Tanya

I was not in a stable relationship and was already raising a daughter on my own.

Paula

i had an abortion

Angelica

Order right away. Pill will arive after 10 days.

Luciana

Hace exactamente 1 año y dos meses. Arranque el 2017 con todo. Supe el día que…

Lucyna L

I had an abortion

Natália Sampaio

Abortei sim! Não foi fácil. foi um dos momentos mas difíceis da minha vida, mas…

Dai 95

Olá Boa tarde ( ou dia ou noite) pra voce que lê.
Não me sinto orgulhosa de…

noha

y la verdad para mi fue un alivio, esto comenzó un el mismo dia que decidi…

Elizabeth .

Difícil, Pero Necesario