Yes, I had an abortion. Last December my boyfriend broke up with me. I was devestated. 3 days before he ended it, we told each other we loved each other (Later I found out he had been cheating on me with another girl). 3 weeks later I find out I am pregnant. Pregnant with a mans baby who has no intention of being with me and is with another girl. I was so scared. I told him the night I found out and he said nothing about raising or keeping the baby. When I got home he sent me a text that said "How old do you have to be to get an abortion?" I was appauled and confused. How could he want to abort our baby? I went to the doctor the next day and they confirmed my pregnancy. I was getting excited. I made the next few doctor appointments, got blood drawn, got my perscription for my prenatal vitamins, and left. I get a call from my ex and he trys to get me to have an abortion. I argue and tell him he will not be apart of the babies life and I will raise him/her myself. He wants to talk and after a few hours of him persuading me to go through with the procedure, I cave. I was scared, I loved him and he knew that. He said he would always be there for me and would always have my back but right after the procedure I never heard from him again. I hate him. I wish I wouldve never listened to him. I think about our unborn child EVERY single day and wish he/she was with me right now. I know that God has forgiven me but I cant seem to forgive myself. Every day is a struggle for me and I cant seem to get through this. If anyone has been through this nightmare and recovered please reach out to me, Id love to hear your story.
2014 United States
What were your feelings about doing the abortion/s? grieving, trapped, angry, stupid, ashamed, guilty, afraid, sad
I hate myself. I hate myself everyday for the decision I made. I feel so guilty about killing my baby. My innocent little boy/girl who I aborted because I listened to my stupid boyfriend at the time. I hate him so much. I just wish I could go back in time and keep my baby.
How did you do the abortion? with medicines
Painful. But Im glad I got a Medical Abortion instead of Surgical. I feel like it wouldve been a lot harder for me to cope with.
What was your situation at this time? financial issues, my age (too young or old), problems with my relationship
My boyfriend did not want the baby and talked me into getting an abortion. I was so young, I had no idea how to be a mother
How did other people react to your abortion?
they did not agree with my decision and were dissapointed. It sucks because I feel like I have no one to talk to
What is your religion?