Ivana

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I had an abortion and never talked about it with anyone

2002 United States (born in Mexico)

What were your feelings about doing the abortion/s?

I am surprised at how long I have carried these feelings with me. In part I think it's because I never grieved properly, was in denial and threw myself into intense activity, working and studying as if my life depended on it. I also never really got to talk about it because of shame or not wanting to make people feel uncomfortable. I am just starting to realize that I need to do the grieving process properly in order to be able to heal. I don't feel guilty though, and I know it was the right decision. If anything I just wish I had taken better care of my emotions and made sure I had some support. I'm glad to have realized this now and started my healing process.

How did you do the abortion?

I tried first with herbs, a very intense schedule drinking infusions every 4 hours, even through the night, for 2 weeks. I had cramping and other reactions, but was unsuccessful. So I decided to go to a clinic. By then I was 6 weeks pregnant.

What was your situation at this time?

I felt like I had no support in the world and didn't feel capable of being a parent on my own and give a child a good life. I didn't want to carry a baby to term and give it away in adoption because I thought that would be even more painful.

Did the illegality of your abortion affect your feelings?

Abortion in Mexico was illegal back then, not sure how it is now. But the illegality definitely made me feel scared. I decided to travel to the US in order to not have to deal with any of the back street horror stories you hear about.

How did other people react to your abortion?

My boyfriend at the time wanted us to never tell anyone, so I didn't. But this in time made it more painful. I am still afraid of people's reactions.

What is your religion?

What is your religion?

mimi

mi aborto. siempre te voy a recordar pequeña semillita

Nthati

It was a difficult but necessary choice to have made.

Mar

aliviada

Nahir

Hice lo mejor que pude.

dessa

fiz um aborto sozinha

Agnieszka

Miałam aborcję - nie żałuję

Dawn & Kevin

I had two abortions

Melanie

No era el momento ni la persona

Petal

I had an abortion only a few months ago. I'm 30, a praticing Christian, a…

BC

Depois de algum tempo lendo os depoimentos por aqui, decidi deixar também o meu.

Mickey

I was 22 turning 23 when I found out I was 4 weeks pregnant. The father and I…

Jessi

No olvidemos, que nos haga crecer

yvette

I had an abortion in the US a few years ago. I think it is important for all of…

Eva Paradise

Aborté. Fue un alivio. Nunca me arrepentí. Hoy tengo dos hijos y puedo criarlos…

Młoda Dama

Postanowiłam opisać swój przypadek ponieważ sama podczas dokonywania aborcji…

Val

Am I a horrible person

Paegan

I had a SUPER LATE abortion.

Rocio Beron

Tome mi decisión y estoy mejor haciendo lo que quiero y siento!!