I had an abortion and I am glad. I was raped by my sisters husband. He kept telling me he'd help financially with the abortion. He lied. I waited 14 weeks for him to give me money, which he didn't and then I paid almost $1000 on my own to get it done. I regret waiting on his empty promises and wished I had done it sooner. Before my abortion I was nervous, as I was going under I was scared, and when they started the procedure I wasn't quite out. I felt everything for the first 2-3 minutes and it was the worst pain of my life. I grabbed the nurse for support as a hot tear rolled down my cheek. She pushed me away and restrained me. At that very moment I realized I was alone. When I woke up in recovery I was heavily drugged and couldn't walk. The day after my breasts began leaking milk and I cried for a whole day. I got the abortion so I wouldn't have to hurt my sister, but in the end it was me that was hurt. I am not bothered I got an abortion, I am relieved. I am hurt because after all was said and done I told my sister. She doesn't believe me and sides with her husband that I am a liar. Sometimes I wish I didn't so I could prove to her that he raped me, and that he was the father of my baby. Now I have no baby and no sister, but I still don't regret my decision to have an abortion. For me, it was the only option.

2008 United States (born in United States)

What were your feelings about doing the abortion/s? grieving, relieved

How did you do the abortion? in a clinic or hospital with surgery

It was a horrible experience. I was treated like an animal, not a human being. I was drugged up, alone, scared, and restrained throughout the procedure. When I first went in, I was not quite fully under anestethic and I could feel everything! It felt like they were ripping my insides out, literally ripping them out! That's all I remember other than waking up in recovery, still heavly medicated and unable to walk, or form complete sentences.

What was your situation at this time? rape/incest

my sisters husband raped me.

Did the illegality of your abortion affect your feelings?

My abortion was legal, but I still felt outcast because of people waving signs and passing out flyers outside of the clinic.

How did other people react to your abortion?

I have not told anyone but my sisters. And they are supportive of me.

Do you have children?

i have no children

What is your religion?