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What were your feelings about doing the abortion/s?

For an unexplainable reason I'm hurt by this loss. For some reason flushing down the toilet (literally), what could have been my baby felt wrong. I never dreamed I would think of an unthinking, unfeeling, thing the size of a raspberry, as .. . Deserving. As needing taken care of. As deserving not to be just thrown away. I totally respect everyone's choice but for some reason I grew an attachment to that thing inside of me. I knew I was pregnant before the missed period. I felt my body change and at first I felt punished. Trapped. scared. I was so worried about how to make it stop and get back to my old self I didn't realize I was also subconsciously feeling every second of that pregnancy. I guess it left some weird imprint on me. I don't know how to tell my partner that it still hurts me. He doesnt get it when I try to tell him that it was a huge experience for me and I need time to heal. I wish I was one of those people who just go on with their life like nothing happened but ive always been pretty sensitive

How did you do the abortion?

I had a medical abortion. With a heating pad and tramadol, the pain was bearable. The bleeding stopped after a week. Going back to work was extremely hard for me at first as my job is very physically demanding but I got through it.

What was your situation at this time?

Hat die Illegalität Ihres Schwangerschaftsabbruchs Ihre Gefühle beeinflusst?

The protesters who were outside of every clinic visit, yelling "repent" and "it's not too late" with their giant pictures of fetuses and whatnot. .. to the recent string of abortion/birth control bans and criminalization. I was so afraid I wouldn't have access to choice (I do thanks to the acula and pp and organizations like women have options who helped me AFFORD it). And after the abortion I feel less angry at those ignorant prolifers, I feel more.. grief. Which is their objective I'm sure. ..

Wie haben andere Menschen auf Ihre Abtreibung reagiert?

Indifferent/ nonchalant. My partner and I have always agreed to an abortion in case an accident ever happened.. and it did. I'm not brave enough or ready to tell my mother. I need time. I never dreamed it would affect me this way. I drunkenly told one of my few female friends. I work in a male dominated field and most of my friends are male. I don't think any of them could react in a way that would be comforting or worth validation as they can't understand. So I haven't told anyone really. Guess that's why I'm here.

legal/illegal

What is your religion?

Constanza Arely

El ser madre debe ser una decisión, una de las mejores experiencias que vive…

Grace

12 Weeks 2 Days Medical Abortion Experience

Anna

Nigdy nie sądziłam, że to powiem ale tak, miałam aborcję.
Historie innych…

Montse

"Un acto amoroso"

Sara Barretos

Descobri a gravidez com 4 semanas, a camisinha estourou e tomei a pílula do dia…

Ana Vargas

Mi aborto lo hice a los 14años hoy tengo una hija de 23 años y un hijo de 17…

Julia

Uratowałam sobie życie

Aysella

Abortions are not fun !

Jéssica

RELATO DE UM ABORTO BEM SUCEDIDO DE UMA MULHER SEM NOME:
Nunca pensei que…

Casey

Medical abortion, 19 years old

Fernanda

Yo aborté y soy una chica libre

Naad

I had an abortion when I was 23 years old

Natália Sampaio

Abortei sim! Não foi fácil. foi um dos momentos mas difíceis da minha vida, mas…

Ewa Izabela

I am pro-choice

Jess

*No podía ser* 11sem

Amanda

E não me arrependo, não se culpe por isso
Você é dona de si.
Eu sou bem jovem

Carol

I woke up in bed, and thought this is a new beginning for him and I. I could…