Lindseymae Mckay

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My name is Lindseymae McKay. I will be 32 years old next week. I have a 6 year old son who is truly the only reason I breathe. I’ve had several abortions. None of which I have ever felt any guilt or remorse; in fact, all I ever felt was relief.
That was until my most recent procedure.
About a month ago I realized I was pregnant. I knew before I took a pregnancy test & knew that I would want an abortion. After the pee-stick confirmation at home, I took the next few necessary steps in scheduling my abortion appointment at the local clinic. I was early enough in the pregnancy to have the option of using the medical abortion versus the in-clinic, vacuum procedure (which really sucks, no pun intended). So about two weeks ago, I went to clinic, heard the same ole song-and-dance about when to take the pills, what to expect, what warning signs to be aware of, bla-bla-bla. As expected, it was a fairly painful ordeal with heavy bleeding, extreme discomfort, with a supportive and clueless partner by my side. Now, here I sit in my bathroom in the middle of the night, wondering if this HUGE bloody booger thing that just fell outta me is the unwanted fetus. It looks like a cranberry covered wonton that, seriously, has the classic fetus shape to it. Now- instead of just flushing it down the toilet, I carefully put it onto a piece of
Toilet paper and instantly went online googling what the
Possibilities were of this gory splotch being the thing I wanted out of me- and if so- why do I feel so guilty about it? Why am I sitting here holding my tears back examining this thing looking for little fingers or toes? What the hell is wrong with me? And now I get it. I’m human. Despite the relief I feel at knowing I’m not going to be having another child, I feel horribly irresponsible and overwhelmingly selfish. I am sure this will not last. At least I hope it doesn’t. I’m sharing this story hoping someone see will share something similar and make me
Feel like I’m less
Of a monster for doing this not once but several times.

2019 United States

What were your feelings about doing the abortion/s?

How did you do the abortion?

Painful but effective

What was your situation at this time?

Hoe het ander mense op u aborsie gereageer?

They encouraged it.

legal/illegal

What is your religion?

Patricia Bronstein

I was married and had known since an early age that I did not want to be a…

Monoirmarie

Yo aborté porque es mi derecho

Manuella Silva

Grávida aos 18.


Olá. Vim contar pra voces minha experiencia com aborto.
Eu ficava…

XHTarv

Too selfish, and ok with that for now.

Marcela

Es más una historia de amor, que de un aborto pero posiblemente en algo te…

Jes

No fue facil pero lo hise y me ha hido muy bien! Fue mi mejor decición!

mary cry

pior momento de minha vida

Catalina

El Misotrol salvó mi vida

Jo

I'm in a loving relationship and it wasn't too long ago when I found out I was…

Andreza

Quando descobri que estava grávida eu já estava com um mês de gestação. A…

Ka

O dono do meu corpo e do meu destino sou eu, e não a sociedade hipócrita e…

inteldeath

It was the right decision, and it is my choice.

Ania

Wczoraj dokonałam aborcji.
Odejście od męża, związanie się z nowym, wydawałoby…

anita nyaera

I had three abortions latest being 2018.I feel guilty but I had no choice.

Alexa

Ojala alguna vez me perdones... pero fue. La mejor decisión..

S.M.J

Nunca imaginei que precisaria passar por isso

Amazomas

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Ani

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