Ali M

It was the decision made together with my partner, who supported during the whole process. My family accepted my decision as this was my own choice, but I don't think they fully agree. I didn't tell the Christan part of my family, I know it would be very hard to them to understand my decision.

It was done in a special clinic, coordinated by council and doctors. The treatment was quick. The early medical abortion was my first choice (the pill). That's how I found this website. But eventually I decided on suction evacuation, because I was afraid of possible complications. But I fully support womenonweb and their idea of easy access to the pill. My treatment was done under local anesthetic and was extremely painful (although I was given painkillers) so I strongly recommend general anesthetic. Unfortunately there was a remaining material in the womb after the treatment and I had to have another suction evacuation after a week time (the symptoms were : strong pains and very intensive bleeding after a week of fist surgery).

Me and my partner were not ready to have a child. I always wanted to have a baby at the stage of my life when I am able to give this baby all it needs. I am still too young and unprepared for such a change. I know that I want to have babies in the future. As one the womenonweb said: I had to send this little angel back to heaven, I hope it will come to me again...

I felt much relieved after the surgery. I feel good that I have the control over my life again. I don't regret my decision. I know that this is not the time for me to have a child.
Now, after couple of weeks after abortion, I need to say it still affects me when I see a happy, glowing pregnant women. The feeling is hard to describe, it's like - this is what I could have had and I don't. I know I want to get there one day. I received much support form my family and especially my partner. I would like to have a child with him when we are both ready and it will be our willful and conscious decision.