Sister

I had an abortion and I am glad. I was raped by my sisters husband. He kept telling me he'd help financially with the abortion. He lied. I waited 14 weeks for him to give me money, which he didn't and then I paid almost $1000 on my own to get it done. I regret waiting on his empty promises and wished I had done it sooner. Before my abortion I was nervous, as I was going under I was scared, and when they started the procedure I wasn't quite out. I felt everything for the first 2-3 minutes and it was the worst pain of my life. I grabbed the nurse for support as a hot tear rolled down my cheek. She pushed me away and restrained me. At that very moment I realized I was alone. When I woke up in recovery I was heavily drugged and couldn't walk. The day after my breasts began leaking milk and I cried for a whole day. I got the abortion so I wouldn't have to hurt my sister, but in the end it was me that was hurt. I am not bothered I got an abortion, I am relieved. I am hurt because after all was said and done I told my sister. She doesn't believe me and sides with her husband that I am a liar. Sometimes I wish I didn't so I could prove to her that he raped me, and that he was the father of my baby. Now I have no baby and no sister, but I still don't regret my decision to have an abortion. For me, it was the only option.