alyssa

nobody knows.

I knew going into it that it was risky and not a good idea. But it was either take care of it myself or be kicked out of my parents home. they would have never condoned a legal abortion. It was a terrible experience, but because of the laws in my state i had no other choice, being under the age of 18 at the time.

I was 17 years old and getting ready to graduate high school with hopes of college afterward. When i found out that i was pregnant I wanted to kill myself at first, because I knew that my parents would disown me, as would the rest of my family, who're all heavily religious and love god more than their own family. I dont even want kids at all, so coming up pregnant was a huge nightmare. I was going to end up homeless, hopeless and with a baby i didnt want, not to mention losing all chance of going to school. I knew that i had no other choice either to get rid of the pregnancy, or just kill myself. So I did it. its been years now, and my life is normal, average, and wonderful. I have no misgivings about what i did. I wouldve gotten a legal abortion had it been possible.

I did what was best for me. theres nothing better than knowing that i took control of my life and my situation and did what i needed to do.