zoe

they tried to support me, but they just didn´t know what to say. I didn´t really talked to somebody. but I try to do it now, I want that the women who know me are able to ask me about my experience in case they are in the same situation.

I was six month from my level exams, I took medicine against depression and the stress I was in. I used to cut myself to get rid of my problems (didn`t work :) ) I was totally sure that I wasn´t able to rise a child. And the "father" wasn`t the one I wanted to spend my life with. So no discussion, the only problem was my body. Everthing in me wanted to protect this child and in fact I really want to have children. Later when I`m healthy, have my studies finished and have somebody I can count on.

I woke up and cried, I was totaly drugged up and confused,but I started crying right away. I new it was right but I felt so lost and lonley. three hours later I left the hospital. When I came home my father was there, he didn`t knew, so I acted normally,I always did. Just sometimes with my new partner who knows I cry when the feelings come up.