Emiliana

I told my two best friends about my unplanned pregnancy and both of them were amazing...more than supportive. They both assured me that whatever my decision was, it would be the right one. They were available to listen 24 hours a day and my best friend was by my side the day of my procedure. I will never forget what she did for me. As for the father of my baby, he is a physician and could not have been any colder about it if he had tried. He made it very clear that he would not be available to assist with a child and in fact, only wanted to be available if it was to accompany me for the procedure. I have not spoken with him since before the procedure...he never called to see what I had decided to do.

Considering the emotional pain one goes through during a time like this, my physical experience was fine. I had a very good doctor and had a general, so fortunately remember very little about the entire procedure. I feel very fortunate that I have insurance which covered the procedure and feel terrible for the thousands of women who go through an abortion without the luxury of a general.

I am a single mom of a beautiful little girl...her father and I were together for five years and in a loving relationship when she was conceived...it just didn't work out and he is involved in her life. While looking at her and imagining the child I had inside my body made me sad because I know what it is to be a mother and love your child more than anything in the world, it was that same love that made me decide that I couldn't bring a baby into the world that wouldn't know his or her father. I felt that it would be selfish for me to have another baby and not be in a loving relationship with the father. I was also worried about the father of the baby changing his mind and wanting to be involved...I did not want to be tied to him for the rest of my life because of our irresponsible actions.

It's been a week and two days since the procedure. My feelings range from sadness to complete relief that it's over...however, I feel that I made the best decision for me...and more importantly for my daughter.