hannah

understanding. But I told only two people.

This child was not expected. Some people would have been ready for it and might call it weak. But my friend has a special charactar and I myself also feel as if it would put a lot of stress on us which might result in a bad situation. Our relationship is not easy. And before having a child in this situation, we should think and change a few things in our way of living, behaviour. There are a few important issus we should sort out first. It would not be good and honest to take this risk. The abortion brought us closer and we realise now, we, one day, want a child. But in a different way, when we are ready nd sorted things out. These are our reasons. Not lazyness or fear. I know I will feel sorry and bad I always will try to remember that for us, these reasons where important and we made this choice for the best.

I took all the pills. On wednesday and on friday in the abortioncentre. It did not loose much blood but had some cramps. I was scared it did not work.

I 've been doing pretty well. But today. Two months later, I feel very down. I heart a girl got pregnant. This girl is my boyfriends ex girlfriend ans she is much younger then me and has no boyfriend. She is about to give birth.
We did not know she got pregnant. Het situation is not easy and she is planning to keep the baby and raise it on het own. I told my boyfriend today. His reaction: i know she is the kind of person who would never do such thing. She would always keep the baby and be strong.

Already back then, I knew i would have kept the baby if it wasn't for him.
If I would have been alone, I probably kept it!Raising a child with him and his charactar just seemed so much stress.

After two months it hurts, more then it ever did before
I do not regret our!!!!!! choice. My life would be extremely difficult and complicated if we went through with it.
But it hurts.