ellie

I'm not sure how to describe it.
The women at the clinic didn't really seem to care about the girls there.
Some girls appeared happy and one was sitting by herself bawling her eyes out.
I saw it on the ultrasound and it was so tiny and for some reason I just felt this sense of relief... like maybe it was a good thing I wasn't bringing it into this world. Like it just wasn't the right time...

My reasons were that , for one I was living in ahouse with 4 room-mates, I didn't have the income to support a child, and my body wasn't in any condition to have a child and I knew that through my experiences I had at the time it would in no way be healthy..

I've felt every possible emotion towards my abortion, i've felt relieved, i've felt like a horrible person, i felt like i was saving it from this world, but i've also brokedown and started crying. It changes from time to time. I can't stay in a room where someone is talking about abortion anymore though, and if it is mentioned on tv i have to turn the channel.
The only people that supported me were my parents and my boyfriend, my friends disowned me for a while but eventually came around and forgave me and told me that no matter my choices i'm still their friend and they'll stand by me..
It's horrible to have no friends turn to in a time of need. When you don't want to tell anyone and the people you feel you can tell just turn their back on you..