Yana

I had an abortion-it was a difficult decision...

Yana
How old are you: Between 23 and 29

Country of birth: United States

Year of abortion: 2008

Country of abortion: Bahrain

I have a small group of friends that were supportive. But overall, I was on my own with my partner.

Type of abortion: with medicines

Personally, it was rather painful. But don't be frightened. It was OK. It was expected that it wouldn't be easy, but it's like having a heavy period, and it's about two hours that the pain is really intense. I was very nervous and scared, and I felt like my world was coming to an end...but it didn't. It always turns out OK. I know it's going to be natural to feel scared, but there is always light at the end of the tunnel. Don't feel alone. It will all be OK.

Reason for abortion: my personal reasons for not wanting a child

Being in the military and being stationed overseas, it just would have turned my world upside down. Although the father was very supportive, it would have left so much uncertainty and there were other personal reason for not going along with it.

Feelings about abortion: disappointed, selfish, relieved, confused, guilty, sad

Of course, I don't think any woman feels good about making a decision like this. Before I learned I was pregnant, I was very anti-abortion. It always happens that way until your in that situation. I thought I would never have to go through this...but regardless of my mistake, I came out of this a bit wiser and stronger. I don't want to make this mistake again, and am taking measures to do so. But it happened, and I made my decision based on my issues. Every woman needs to grieve in their own matter, but remember it doesn't make you less of a person for doing so. If anyone wants to judge, they have their right too, but keep your head up high. The person without sins can throw the first stone...and I don't think there is anyone that can do so. We all make mistakes, and go through tough times...we just have to keep looking up and moving forward. Your not alone.

Religion Christianity

Children: i have no children