Charlotte

I had an abortion when three years ago, when I was 16. I was so scared. My boyfriend had already left me and said he had a new girlfriend, so he didn´t want to come back to me. My parents were really upset. When I first told them, they didn´t speak to me for a week. Then they said that I should decide for myself, but that they wouldn´t help me anyway, no matter what choice I´d make. They told me they were too disappointed in me. At first I had no idea what to do. I didn´t want a child. I was already planning to go to university, and then I felt like my whole life fell apart. But I still wasn´t sure yet. I thought it was very selfisch of me to put my studies first, but at the same time I realized it was not just because of that. At that time I was just not emotionally ready to have a child. I might even have hated it, and I would never want to get it to a point where I could hate my own child. So I had an abortion. I didn´t tell anyone. Nobody knows except my ex and my parents. I´m a afraid they would understand. My parents still don´t want to talk about it, so I keep all my toughts to myself. I have been sad for a while, but I really think this was the best way.