Phaedra

Some were supportive, some were against abortion. A lot of people don't really realise your dillema and think: 'who does the crime, must do the time', but it's not as simple as that.
It's never a light-hearted decision. It always comes with a lot of other problems and whatever you choose, it will not be easy.

First i went to a clinic and got the pills. The first 2 days very normal, no pain at all.
The third day I took the pills that cause the blood loss. I was at home and had heavy cramps. It felt really natutal, like a very, very heavy period.
When I ate, I vomited whitin a few hours and had diarrhoea, I felt really sick.
The bleeding kept on for six days, but only the 3rd and 4th day were painful.

I was 22 and just ended a relationsship, which was going on for 3 years. I was a succesful grad-student and in the middle of my tests.
Having a child would interfer with my study and my plans for the next few years.
Also I would be forever linked with my ex through this child, and that was something I couldn't cope with.

I suffered from postabortion syndrom. A year and a half later, my older sister got pregnant and I kept thinking about my never-born child. I am still a bit confused about it. I am happy about that I did it, because otherwise I think I really couldn't finish my study and get on with my life, but I think often about how it would be if I had the child.
When I accepted that it was totally normal that it was a big thing and that I was allowed to grief, I handled this feelings very well and got stronger about it. A child would have ruined my life and I think I wasn't able to love at all in that time, so it was better for the child too.