Julie

Nobody knew I had an abortion except for my partner

I was 9 weeks pregnant and simply could not afford to travel to England and pay for expensive clinics. Not to mention having to explain my trip at short notice so close to Christmas.
I was very anxious about what to expect and worried that it could all go wrong.
I took my first tablet 24 hours before the second set of tablets.
The procedure for me took approx 7 hours-from taking the second tablets taken to the abortion being complete.
When the cramps began, I was so grateful to be in my own home. The pain was severe and regular painkillers did not help. I can liken it to labour pains as I have had one child and the pain was the same.
The cramps stopped immediately though when the sac was passed.
I was left in no doubt about the abortion being complete and was so grateful to have had that moment in the privacy of my own bathroom and not a strange clinic with strangers around me.
The bleeding was also quite severe and again, it was a comfort to be in my own home throughout. Bleeding continued for 3/4 weeks afterwards but was light after the first 7-10days.
It was such a relief to have full control of the whole procedure and I firmly believe it made the whole sad experience a lot more bearable.
I would recommend the home procedure to anyone as it was straightforward and private.

My partner and I agreed that one child is enough for us at this time.
We do not feel that financially or emotionally we could provide for another baby.

I'm sad about the whole experience and I do feel terribly guilty and selfish.
I am relieved, though, that it is all over and am determined to move on with my life in a positive way.
I am so grateful to this website for giving me control and making it possible.