Alana Parker

My friends were very loving and supportive and my work was as well.. I was open with everyone and I knew I had made the right decision.. My lover was not Ok.
He wanted me to be more upset and he wanted to be the one to console me.. I had A medical abortion and the next day he wouldn't talk to me and then was out of contact for 5 days..
when he called he had my stuff packed and broke up with me..
His friend said I didn't consult him..
Not having my lover around was easier at first because I felt there was pressure off me but then when I needed someone.. I became very sad.

It was lonely.. but I needed the time and space..

A condom broke and I used the morning after pill and still fell pregnant..
I had already decided this was not to be and I was still in the first 6 months of a relationship.

I felt like I did the correct thing for the unborn being, for my self and for my son..
I was angry to have fallen pregnant and sad to have been abandoned. But I know I will feel better soon... Its a grieving process because I had to let go.