AleksandraI don't know what to say... i hope to stop feeling guilty for what i' ve done someday... i want to make a small tattoo that cannot be seen by anyone except me... cause i feel that my body is now cemetery, so this tattoo can be some kind of grave... i know that the only way to feel free is to accept the facts. Trying to keep them out of my memory is just..... awful... rude.... and this will never make me happy... only more guilty if it's still possible. I hope someday it will all be history.
How old are you: Between
21
and 27
Country of birth: Poland
Year of abortion:
2007
Country of abortion: Poland
Most thought of it as a right decision... everyone was very supportive.
Type of abortion: with medicines
Strange... i couldn't imagine that 6 pills will change my life.
Reason for abortion: financial issues, problems with my relationship, mental health reasons
We (me and my boyfriend) were in shock... and struggled from the beginning to the end... cause i thought i'm not doing the right thing... i didn't want to kill, cause it will be me who took the pills, me who feels guilty, me who lose this small -but still- life... it wasn't like this that suddenly we know we're pregnant and we're happy as never before... it was completely the opposite... so i didn't want my child to develop in such conditions... i still don't know if i've made a right decision... :(
Feelings about abortion: grieving, trapped, confused, in doubt, ashamed, guilty, afraid
Everything has changed... it may be named "comfort" but the only comfort i have is the fact that i don't have to take those pills again... i feel guilty... so guilty i cannot even describe... i don't wish anybody to go through this... it was phisycal pain... now it is mental...
Religion no religion
Children: i have no children
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