Kandice

The only people that know about it are my husband and a good friend of mine. They were both very supportive.

It was better than I expected. It was not my first abortion. I took some ibuprofen(painkillers) before and barely felt anything.

I did the abortion in Brazil for reason of lacation. I was there when found out. But I live in USA. Here there is no support as free daycare for working mother or maternity leave. I have no medical insurance and that would mean a big debt to start with. I cannot afford to be a stayhome mom. My husband does not earn enough money and to pay daycare for two kids would be too expensive. If we have any hope to have a easier life in the future (financially) we have to have only one kid. Plus my marriage is not very good and there is no point of putting another child into a relationship that I don't know if it's going to last.

When I had my first abortion I felt extremelly guilty. This was when I was 21 years old. I had a boyfriend I did not love and did not want a conexion with him forever. Plus I hadn't gone to college and still lived with my mom wich I don't get along very well. If I had had the child would be desastrous for everybody. I was more spiritual back then. But I never regret my decision I just regret that the pregnancy happened.
This time around I did not have the same guilt I just felt very stupid for letting happen. Also in disbelief. Maybe if my financial situation was diferent I wouldn't have done it but I don't wanna raise kids with dificulty. I wanna have an easy mind to enjoy life with them and never want them to bee a burden.