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I used cytotec.
I used the instructions found on the Women on Waves website, followed it exactly.
It was hard just sitting and waiting, I thought nothing was happening, but I started bleeding about four hours later and I passed the placenta another three hours later.
It was sad, I have never and still have never felt so alone in my life. I did not have anyone to call just in case, I just prayed it will work fine and I'll be free.

My boyfriend and I broke up the day before I found out I was pregnant, I did not want to tell him but I did eventually.
He did not want us to be together anymore, he did not love me enough, he said he was not ready for a serious relationship, his feelings were not going to change, pregnant or not.
I had no one else to talk to, no where else to go.
I am 21 a student and I do not have the means to support a child.
I know I did not have a choice.

I'm a bit relieved it's over. But I cant get over that moment when I saw it drop out of me, I feel ashamed. I know I wanted to have kids at some point, but I also know I'm not ready to have one now.
I feel ashamed as I am not that girl, I was on the pill, I've always used condoms I've been careful and one accident causes all this, I am ashamed of myself.
I am upset because of my relationship, I don't believe I loved him so much and he wasnt willing to try hard enough, even for the sake of just being there for me.

It just all sucks.

But it was the right thing to do.