Ninel

I live in Guatemala, where not only abortion is illegal, but inmoral. I also studied in a nun-school, and my family is catholic. And, worst of all, my doctor is from the Opus-Dei!!. I am not a teenager, I am not single and I am not poor. But I don't want another kid, for NOW! I noticed I was pregnant three weeks ago, and I didn't tell anybody, not even my husband, whom I love and I care. I realize this is my body, and I should be the first to decide if I want to be a mother again, so I did an abortion by myself, and it went perfect. Someday, maybe I will want to be pregnant again, but now is not the moment. It was not my husband's desition to make, because he doesn't have the child in his body, and he doesn't nurse the kid, he doesn't wake up every night, and he doesn't quit his job to be a father. we , the women, are the only ones who can decide to keep a baby or not. Because being a mother, is not like being a father, at all. After the abortion I feeled.....RELIEF, and JOY. Of course I thought of the baby, how it would look like, if it were a boy or a girl. But most of all, I am happy to get back my life, and I will try to be a good mother for my other kids.